I’ve always been better with written words than I have been with spoken ones. For some reason unknown to me my feelings flow better on a piece of paper (or computer screen). I sometimes feel like I’m never going to get over your past, the pain you caused, the never feeling like i’ll be able to be happy with you for forever. I get scared that one day you’re going to get tired of me, that you’ll get bored and move on to some other girl later in life. Maybe it scares me that you could love me this much. That you could not want anyone but me, how can that even be possible? Maybe I’m paranoid or maybe its still to good to be true. I wanted you, when you didn’t even know I existed. I wanted to finally be able to call you mine, and now that it’s happened I can’t believe its real. I have my moments when our relationship doesn’t feel real, like how could i have finally gotten what I wanted. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m working on forgiving myself, I really mean it this time. Cause if I can forgive myself that means I can forgive you too, completely forgive you. I love you Drew.